Shadowlands Monologues

C.S. Lewis, a world-renowned Christian theologian, writer and professor, leads a passionless life until he meets spirited poet Joy Gresham from the U.S.

Why love, if losing hurts so much? I have no answers anymore: only the life I have lived. Twice in that life I've been given the choice: as a boy and as a man. The boy chose safety, the man chooses suffering. The pain now is part of the happiness then. That's the deal.

Will you marry this foolish, frightened old man… who needs you more than he can bear to say… who loves you, even though he hardly knows how?

I've always found this a trying time of the year. The leaves not yet out. Mud everywhere you go. Frosty mornings gone. Sunny mornings not yet come. Give me blizzards and frozen pipes, but not this, nothing time. Not this, waiting room of the world.

I love you, Joy. I love you so much. You made me so happy. I didn't know I could be so happy.

You know, I don't want to be somewhere else anymore. I'm not waiting for anything new to happen… not looking around the next corner and over the next hill. I'm here now. That's enough.