The best thing about now, is that there’s another one tomorrow.
Compared to other kids, I haven’t had that many hardships… not really. Shit’s… Stuff’s happened, sure, but stuff always happens right? But the real challenge of my life, the real hardship is me. It’s always been me.
You know what Dan, if you were my Dad, you wouldn’t have to.
P.S. – I don’t know if this was due a long time ago. Probably was. That’s fine. It may be too late for this essay. But it’s not too late for me.
Once you’ve actually talked to her, you see who she is.
You think beauty’s in some classroom or some textbook, and it’s not. That’s not what it’s about. This right here. This is beautiful. All of this. That’s all you need.
As long as I can remember, I’ve never not been afraid. Afraid of failure… of letting people down… hurting people… getting hurt. I thought if I kept my guard up and focused on other things, other people… if I couldn’t even feel it, well then no harm would come to me. I screwed up. Not only did I shut out the pain, I shut out everything – the good and the bad – until there was nothing.
As long as I can remember, I’ve never not been afraid. Afraid of failure… of letting people down… hurting people… getting hurt. I thought if I kept my guard up and focused on other things, other people… if I couldn’t even feel it, well then no harm would come to me. I screwed up. Not only did I shut out the pain, I shut out everything – the good and the bad – until there was nothing.
It’s fine to just live in the now,but the best part about now is there’s another one tomorrow. And I’m gonna start making them count.
ps.I don’t know if this was due a long time ago, Maybe too late for this essay ,it’s not too late for me.
