Maybe I’m one of those people that has always wanted to do it, but it’s like a pipe dream for me, you know? And then you… you said it, you-you changed your dreams, and then you grow up. Maybe I’m one of those people, and I’m not supposed to. And I can go back to school, and I can find something else I’m supposed to do. ‘Cause I left to do that, and it’s been six years, and I don’t wanna do it anymore.
My aunt used to live in Paris. I remember when she used to come home, and tell us… these stories about being abroad. And… I remember… she told us once that she jumped into the river once. Barefoot. She smiled.
I’ve been to a million auditions, and the same thing happens every time, where I get interrupted because someone wants to get a sandwich. Or I’m crying, and they start laughing. Or there’s people sitting in the waiting room, and they’re… and they’re like me but prettier and better at the… because maybe I’m not good enough.
