Jennifer Jason Leigh Monologues

Then, as a psychologist, I think you're confusing suicide with self-destruction. Almost none of us commit suicide, and almost all of us self-destruct. In some way, in some part of our lives. We drink, or we smoke, we destabilize the good job... and a happy marriage. But these aren't decisions, they're... they're impulses. In fact, you're probably better equipped to explain this than I am.

You're a biologist. Isn't the self-destruction coded into us? Programmed into each cell?

It's not like us… it's unlike us. I don't know what it wants, or if it wants, but it'll grow until it encompasses everything. Our bodies and our minds will be fragmented into their smallest parts until not one part remains… Annihilation.

It's the last phase. Vanished into havoc. Unfathomable mind. Now beacon, now sea.

Lena? We spoke, what was it we said? That I needed to know what was inside the lighthouse. That moment's passed. It's inside me now.

It's not like us, it's unlike us.

I don't know what it wants, or if it wants, but it will grow until it encompasses everything. Our bodies and our minds will be fragmented into their smallest parts, until not one part remains… Annihilation.

'I don't want to try to be loved anymore. I don't want to be scared anymore. Or to kill anymore. I don't want to kill anymore. I... don't want to be alone anymore. I don't want to be anything anymore. I don't need a reason to kill myself. I need a reason not to. There isn't one.' You don't want to say anything special to anyone? Okay, 'Allison Jones.'

Wait till you see me. Your color was beautiful but I can't go around looking like you anymore, can I? Okay now, Allie, don't laugh.

Did you know that identical twins are never really identical. There's always one who's prettier. And the one who's not does all the work. She used me, and… Then she left me. Just like you.

Come on. Take them. Come on, Allie, it's nicer this way.

Mine always comes when I'm wearing something nice.

Well, he will cheat on you again. That's a promise. And when he does, don't come running to me, okay? Because I've had it with you. You're so fucking weak!

Listen, you pathetic shit. You want to hold on to your business? No, you listen to me this time, asshole. If you trash me around town, you're fucked. And your family is fucked too, you got that? It won't just be you.

Hedra Carlson : [Hedy hangs up the phone with a big smile giving a bow to Allie]  Ta-da! Let me tell you he is pissing in his PJ's right now.

Don't make me come get you! Allie? Come out now. Come on. Allie. Allie!

Come on. Come out now! Allie, please!

I'm scared. Where are you?

We're friends, Allie, and you could be in a lot of trouble without me. But I'm not going to leave you. That wouldn't be right. I won't leave you. Okay, let's go.

I know. I was you. Who is this Hedy, anyway? No one's seen her. She's not on the lease. There's not even a fingerprint of hers here. I've been cleaning like crazy. You have to come with me, Allie, or they'll put you away.

That's right. She told me. So, don't try and make me think that we're not close. We lean on each other, and we... We protect each other. We're... We're best friends.

How can you do that? Everything I've done, I've done for you. Do you understand that? The people you hated...

I hated. People like you don't care.

Just like that stupid girl in Tampa. She called my parents, too. Told them all my secrets.

You want to put me away, huh? I can't… I can't keep making excuses for you, Allie. I can't.

I can't, I can't, I can't, I can't - Oh, God. Oh, God, oh...

Why are you hiding from me?

You think I can't find you? Huh? Your goddamn shirt is sticking out of the door.

Look. You're in a different league. I know that. You have this great personality. You've got this great style. You run your own business… You're always going to find someone. You have to be stupid to think that you wouldn't.

Listen for a moment, lads, and hear me tell m' tale / How o'er the sea from England shore, I was condemned to sail / The jury found me guilty, sir, and said the judge, said he / For life, Jim Jones, I sentence you across the stormy sea. Take my tip before you ship to join the iron gang / Don't be too gay in Botany Bay or else you'll surely hang / Or else you'll surely hang, says he, and after that, Jim Jones / High up... high up upon... high up upon the gallows tree, the crows will pick your bones. You'll have no chance for mischief there, remember what I say / They'll flog the poaching out of you out there in Botany Bay / Waves were high upon the sea, the winds a-pproacing gales / I'd rather drowned in misery than gone to New South Wales. The waves were high upon the seas when the pirates came along / The soldiers on the convict ship were full five hundred strong / They opened fire and somehow drove that pirate ship away / I'd rather joined that pirate ship than gone to Botany Bay. And one dark night, when everything is quiet in the town...

I'll kill you bastards one and all, I'll gun the floggers down/ Give them all a little shock, remember what I say / They'll yet regret they sent Jim Jones in chains to Botany Bay.

Now day and night the irons clang and like poor galley slaves / Toil and toil and when we die must fill dishonored graves / Bye and bye, I'll break m' chains and to the bush I'll go / And you'll be dead behind me, John, when I get to Mexico.

What do I gotta say? About John Ruth's ravings? He's absolutely right. Me and one of them fellas is in cahoots. We're just waitin' for everybody to go to sleep. That when we're gonna kill y'all.

Oh, you can kill us all. But you'll never spend a cent of that bounty money. And you'll never leave this mountain alive. 'Cause when that snow melts, the rest of Jody's gang - ALL FIFTEEN OF 'EM - that were waiting in Redrock, are comin' here. Now, let's say you shoot us all. If you really want all that Domergue Gang bounty money, you still gotta get all our corpses into Redrock... and that ain't gonna be so easy. 'Cause I doubt you can drive a four-horse team. Yet that wagon out there is too heavy for a two-horse team; so that means you gonna have to lead a STRING OF HORSES into Redrock. And with that deep snow after a blizzard, you ain't gonna be able to get away with any more than say... one body per horse. So that's YOU, leadin' a string of four horses, into Redrock. And with all them horses, in that snow, and you all by your lonesome... you're gonna be a mite poky. And you're gonna run smack dab into The Domergue Gang. And when those FIFTEEN KILLERS come across YOU in possession of all our dead bodies, they ain't just gonna kill you and that nigger, they're gonna go back Redrock and kill EVERY SON OF A BITCH IN THAT TOWN. You reeally the Sheriff of Redrock? You wanna save the Town? Then SHOOT than nigger dead!