I saw terrible things… and I did terrible things. So if I’m talking to you, it will make me sad and it will make you too sad. In this life… I just want to be happy in this life. If I’m telling this to you… you will think that… I am some sort of beast… or devil. I am all of these things… but I also having mother… father… brother and sister once. They loved me.
Bullet is just eating everything, leaves, trees, ground, person. Eating them. Just making person to bleed everywhere. We are just like wild animals now, with no place to be going. Sun, why are you shining at this world? I am wanting to catch you in my hands, to squeeze you until you can not shine no more. That way, everything is always dark and nobody’s ever having to see all the terrible things that are happening here.
I just want to be happy in this life.
God, are you watching what we are doing?
God, when I’m closing my eyes, I am seeing the rainy season in my village. You can be finding the ground is washing away beneath your feet. Nothing is ever sure… . and everything is always changing.
I am now know the smell of the dead, they are sweet like sugar cane and rotten like palm wine. And when they stay in the sun, they are growing plump like brown mangoes.
God… I have killed a man. It is the worst sin… but I am knowing too, it is the right thing to be doing.
Sun, why are you shining on this world? I am wanting to catch you in my hands, to squeeze you until you cannot shine no more. That way, everything is always dark and nobodys ever having to see all the terrible things that are happening here.
