Ponyboy, I asked the nurse to give you this book so you could finish it. It was worth saving those little kids. Their lives are worth more than mine. They have more to live for. Tell Dally it was worth it. I’m just gonna miss you guys. I’ve been thinking about it, and that poem, that guy that wrote it. He meant you are gold when you’re a kid, like green. When you’re a kid everything is new, dawn. It’s just. Like the way you dig sunsets, Pony. That’s gold. Keep it that way, it’s a good way to be. I want you to tell Dally to look at one. I don’t think he’s ever really seen a sunset. There’s still a lot of good in the world. Tell Dally. I don’t think he knows. Your buddy, Johnny.
I used to talk about killing myself all the time, man. But I don’t wanna die now. It ain’t long enough. Sixteen years ain’t gonna be long enough. Hell, I wouldn’t care so much if there hadn’t been so many things I haven’t done yet. So many damn things I ain’t seen or done. That time when we were in Windrixville was the only time I’ve ever been away from my neighborhood.
Stay gold, Ponyboy. Stay gold.
Man that was one tough car. Mustangs, they’re tough.
I killed him. I killed that boy. I killed him. Go ahead, man. I won’t look at you.
I can’t take much more of this, Ponyboy. I’ll kill myself or something. I don’t know.
I’ve got to do something. It seems like there’s gotta be some place without Greasers, Socs. There must be some place with just plain ordinary people. People.
